Then, I met Jake & my life plan got flipped 180 degrees. My life plan turned into not really knowing what my life plan was. My plan wasn't to find my dream man until I was out of college, yet there he was standing in front of me at one month into being 17 years old with a year left of high school telling me he was joining the Marine Corps after we graduate. I had no idea what to think, or how to plan for it. & honestly there is no form of planning any one can do to prepare for life with your better half in the military. I didn't know what I was getting myself into & I still don't. One of the biggest talks Jake & I had about his life in the military was what was going to happen with us as a couple. We both knew life would be much more unbearable without each other, so we had to figure it out. I think we both kind of blocked out the thought of him leaving for a few months. In April or May we started really talking about what we were doing. We knew we wanted to be together forever, so why not start now?
Jake & I got engaged not even 3 months after graduating high school. We got married 2 days after he graduated boot camp. He was 19, I was 18.
I have been asked many questions when it came to the reasoning of Jake & I getting married. Here are my personal favorites:
"Are you pregnant?"
"Does he just want to make more money?"
"If you get married now, won't you get bored in a few years?"
"Why?"
As if loving someone is no longer a good enough reason to want to spend forever with them. I'm sure that if Jake had gone to college or into the work force, we probably would have waited a few more years to get married, but I couldn't imagine life any different. It got to the point that I didn't even want to tell people I was engaged to try & dodge the judgment that came along with it. Then, I was sitting in my room, reading a letter from Jake while he was at boot camp talking about how he couldn't wait to come home & marry me & I realized, who the heck cares. Who cares how many people do the wow-you-look-12-&-you-are-getting-married face paired with the awkward "oh." Who cares how many people ask if you're pregnant. Who cares how many people just ask, "Why?" As long as you & your spouse are happy & know your reasons why, what does the opinion of a random person asking you about your engagement ring really matter?
I understand the hesitation to be okay with someone who is 18 & wanting to get married. Heck, I got my license 2.5 years ago & don't really understand how to file my taxes. I can't drink, get more than a 500 dollar limit on my credit card, & I just made my own Netflix account. Even though there are a lot of things that I don't know or understand fully, there is some things I do know. I know that Jake is the only person in my life that even when I am having the worst day in existence, he can still make me smile with just a glance. I know that every passing day, whether we are together physically or not, I look forward to the next day, week, month, & year with him more & more. I know that I will never love a person like I love Jake. I hope everyone feels toward someone the way I do towards Jake.
There are a lot of hardships that come to being married, let alone at 18 & 19, lots of which we haven't even had to face yet. But, there isn't a single soul on this Earth I would rather go through every hard time in our life with.
-KS
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